February 25, 2007 – So it has been a week since I spoke with my neighbor, Marylyn, and my best friend from high school, Sybil.  If you read my last post then you understand that I was stressing, to say the least.  Well, after speaking to both of them, I have been feeling so much better and haven’t thought once that Macy was starving.  Sometimes all it takes is a little advice from a friend to change your thoughts and worries.  THANK YOU SO MUCH!  Breastfeeding is once again a good thing and not one that I cry myself to sleep over.  I think Macy is enjoying it more too! 

I’ll send a new update tomorrow after our appointment.  Take care. 

February 19, 2006 – Schedule or no schedule, that is the question???  I guess in the grand scheme of things Macy and I have a schedule.  She wakes up and I feed her, change her, play with her and then she falls back to sleep.  Then within 2 to 3 hours, we start again.  Night time she sleeps between 3-6 hours so that changes our routine a bit.  My question is, if Macy wakes up at different times every day and goes to sleep at different times each night are we really on a schedule?  Also, I keep reading that I am supposed to have a “bedtime ritual” where Macy knows that it is time for bed.  How the heck am I supposed to do that if the time she is tired every night varies???  WHY DON’T BABIES COME WITH INSTRUCTION MANUALS? How are you supposed to know what you are doing? And don’t even get me started on breastfeeding and pumping!!  If Macy is breastfeeding every 2-3 hours how do I know if she is getting enough to eat???  I can’t see how much she is drinking, she can’t tell me if she is full or worse yet hungry and pumping to determine how much milk I make is only making me incredible upset and paranoid.  If you could read my mind it would be saying “OH MY GOD, I think Macy is starving to death” on an almost 24/7 basis.  I hate the unknown and as far as I can tell, first time parenting is all unknowns.  UUGghhhhh!  I know that we will figure it out and Macy is probably fine but man do I worry.  I wish I had an off switch for the worrying feature of my mind.  Macy sends her love. 

February 14, 2007- Happy Valentines Day Everyone.  Macy and I had a fun time taking Valentines photos yesterday.  I don’t think she really understands it yet but that’s alright. 

We hope everyone has a wonderful day. 

February 12, 2007 – One smile makes it all worth it.  Macy is just starting to smile and make noises like she is trying to talk.  I tell you what, one smile and it makes up for the lack of sleep and frustration of not knowing what we are doing.  She melts my heart every time.  She will be 7 weeks old tomorrow and some days it feels like she has been here forever and others it feels like she just arrived.  Babies are so amazing.  I always wish I could see what Macy was thinking or even looking at.  Seeing everything for the first time must be so amazing. 

I posted a bunch of new photos of Macy today.  We had a fun time this morning.  When her neck gets stronger, I think she will be an even better model for me. 

Take care everyone. 

February 10, 2007 – It is really amazing how much my conversation topics have changed since Macy was born.  Not that I am the most interesting person in the world but WOW, unless it is baby related, on ‘Ellen’ or ‘Oprah’ or in PEOPLE magazine I don’t seem to be able to contribute.  I never thought I would turn into one of those people that had nothing to talk about other than poop, pee, feeding or crying.  I guess it just happens when you are spending 24/7 with your baby and to be honest I kind of love it.  It probably is excruiating to listen to but I don’t care.  : ) 

Macy is getting bigger by the day.  We don’t have another appointment until 2/27 and I can’t wait to see how much she weighs and how tall she is now.  Macy seems to be growing taller a lot faster than she is growing wider.  She is finally starting to be able to wear her 0-3 month clothes now.  She is also really starting to get her lungs going and can cry really loud now.  She practices that at least a few times a day!  Some days even more. Often times when she is crying like crazy I wonder if I am qualified for this job.  It is the best job ever, hard and difficult but the best. 

I will try and post some new photos soon. 

February 1, 2006 – So do you think that babies scream, just because they can?  Or do you think that something always makes them scream? They are hungry, need to be changed, are sleepy or maybe just want to be held?  Macy isn’t really that much of a screamer but I do believe that she only screams when she wants something.  Now the trick is to figure out what that “something” is. 

Macy seems to be developing an attachment to her pacifier, much to Marc’s dismay.  We are struggling with the fact that she might get dependent on it and won’t be able to chill out without it.  On the other hand, if that soothes her, what is the harm??  Man, parenting is tricky! 

I keep wishing that children would come with instructions so I wouldn’t feel like I was just winging it all the time.  I am going to take the stance that as long as Macy is fed, warm, dry, talked to and being held often that she will be alright.  She may cry but that is just what babies do.  Right?????

She is getting cuter by the day (said the very proud mother). 

More later, I hear the little pea-bug waking up right now.